I didn't realized I had "already" (in quotes because considering I'm registerd for 6 years now, that's not much) 3000 pageviews. That's cool.

What's not cool on the other hand is, that I can't get a job. I send applications like hell and I'm running out of adresses I can write to, but nope, no job for me. Even better people don't reply. Out of 200 sent applications I get about 3 to 5 answers. That's a 1.5 - 2.5% rate of answers, wow, just wow! And then only one or two of 'em invite me to an interview, which would be cool, if they would tell me afterwards that I get/don't get the job and why so.

I have to imagine people sitting at their desks, looking though the mail, seeing an application and without a beat throwing it in whatever trash, thinking "Naw, fuck that, who cares. I sure don't!". But that thought just frustrates me more.

Maybe I should study first and then get a job instead the other way around as I originally planned, but considering how bad I did in school I find that more or less unlikely to happen.